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I'm crying again... );

sry 4 not blogging 4 a long period of time..
eventhough there are a lot of things happened during dat period...
for example, CAS trip (juz finished last weekend), hockey match n a lot more that i cant think bout them now..

i jz want 2 share my feeling with others.. as u can see from the title of the post, yes.. i'm crying again.. ); i feel so guilty towards my dad n my aunt.. they received warning letters from petronas regarding my underperformance in IB.. i didnt meet the cut off point.. i just managed to get 27 out of 42 n the cut off point is 35.. i feel so bad.. last night, when i was at stadium to watch man u match vs malaysia XI, my fther called me.. he asked me bout diz thing.. without any intention, i rouse up my voice bcoz the stadium is noisy. But i think my dad feel the other way round, n he asked whther i'm angry wif him or what.. by dat tyme, i feel so guilty coz i didnt mean 2 hurt him.. i feel so stress... coz of course i dont want 2 crush anyone's hope towards me..but i have tried my best.. (maybe it still not the best act) i'm blaming myself rite now.. n jz now, my aunt picked me from dshire n treated me for dinner.. but i knw.. the main thing is to talk bout the letter.. n yes!! dats true.. we did talk bout it.. n i cried in her car just now bcoz i feel so bad.. i'm feel so guilty... IB in sri kdu sucks!! pet also add in pressure 2 me.. they dont rly know our situation here.. wut they know is juz simply chnge the policy.. wth!! they should investigate further.. n not simply do generalization... come on!! u r 1 of the most making-profit company n u stil dunno wut 2 do!! even students like us can think wisely!! GOD!! plzz.. help me.. my friend said dat if U put us in the situation.. U will also put us out from the situation.. (sry,my english is not dat good.. dats y english A1 doesnt really help).. but for the time being, i still believe dat anythings happen for a reason.. so, i hope.. U will show me the reason in 1 year time.. thx...